i'm gonna hate doris chan forever!!!....i dun care if she happens to come across this blog and read this....listen here...i hate u! and choo wee...but i hate u more coz choo wee is wayyy nicer than u are...i went alla way to school...and she said that i'm gonna have my clinical supplementary next week...such a short notice!..i failed this posting last semester!!! and i'm going for holiday on the 28th....and if i go for the holiday i will miss 2 working days...so i ask her if its possible to put me on saturdays or monday and tuesday the week after i end my attachment..but no...they dun give me any other choice other than..i go for my attachment or i have to make up 8 weeks of attachment and extend 6 months of school..dammit...which means i will graduate one semester later than my frenz...fuck!....she and choo wee dun seem to have any feelings at all....both of them told me that i shouldn't go for the holiday..yes i noe that thats the most appropriate thing to do..but i cannot do this to my family...my mom wudn't go if i dun go..she wouldn't leave any of her child behind...and my family been wanting to go for a vacation but its always cancelled coz of my attachment...my holidays just dun seem to clash with my brothers...and those two lecturers can happily say that if they were my mother they will scold me coz i should focus more on my studies and they will go for holidays without me..tak sayang mulut ah drg....dun compare themselves to my mother....and i wudn't want them for my mother either..heartless creatures...and they were asking 'dun u have any relatives in singapore' in such a sacarstic way...of courselah i have..u tink i'm some bloody chinky izzit...as a woman..dun they understand that mothers cudn't leave their child alone at home while they are at some other country...oh i forgot..they are heartless....

i noe its my fault for failing the vtp...but when i asked doris about my results...all she said was 'i dun know if u will pass or fail...the results are still pending..i'll call u when the results are out' -her exact words-...and its been monthhsssss since she called me...and my vtp posting this semester are out...of course i'll just take note of this schedule and plan the holiday so that it wudn't clash with the attachment..but she just have to call me today and say that my attachment is next week....i admitted that failing it was my fault..but its their fault for posting the schedule online if they know that i'll fail that bloody posting!...i pointed this out to them..and u know what they said?..as usual..the blame is back to me....they said i should have the initiative to enquire about the results and the make up posting....*read the first 3 lines of this paragraph* i did have the initiave ok!...but u said the results are pending!..u said u will kol me once the results are out..i dun belive that results just came out....its too short notice....so u should have the initiative urself to tell me earlier...

i feel so bad that the whole family is affected because of this....i will feel reli bad if they decide to cancel the holiday...but i am not gonna allow it to happen..i'll rather go for the 8 weeks of attachment and 6 months of extra school....coz that way...i will suffer alone..my family won't be affected...fuck the school and their attachments!